To carry on with my ranting, i started coming across different sorts of "I'm already gone" sort of relationships. Mainly because I hear views of people on their love life and how they are affected by it. Though on FB, I read this article by a new found friend as of this year. As worse as his life can be, he could still lift up his chin, smile, be as cheerful as possible, hiding the fact that he is so much depressed and lost inside. Somehow that feeling interest me since I have basically went through the same thing. A love that is very much gone from my life and the fact I can't change a thing about it.
He lost his love with a sickness I'm guessing. She went home with the lord as of end of August of this year. Who could actually thought one can go through with this with such a calm pace?
It kinda made me want to cry as I come across that article but as cold as I am with these things I think I am use to holding it in due to the pain I basically went through these past 3 years.
I'm sure he misses her the most. The were still an item until the very end.
Though our situation is not totally the same, I still somewhat understood how he feels. The feeling of not being able 2 do anything for his loved one just to save her.
I learn something from him though by reading his notes.
"Love is magnificent. When you do something without expect anything else in return at all. That is all that matters. Allah loves this."
Made me smile and I know that is all true.
I am scared as heck to try again. Though if my fate is to love you all my life till I die then so be it. I won't expect anything else. Whatever I did, I hope you understand that I did so cause I think it is for the best for the both of us.
You will always be my shining star dear. Always know that. And all the best in everything!
2/03/04- 16/4/06