<< November 2009 >>
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
01 02 03 04 05 06 07
08 09 10 11 12 13 14
15 16 17 18 19 20 21
22 23 24 25 26 27 28
29 30




Bout the day-dreamer

x nora, selphia, cassiterite
x 19
x 10/1
x libran
x is studying in mo-na-sh u


Currently

date: 30/11/09
mood: awfully tired
listening 2: sakura tange- love stream
Reading: kaichou wa maid-sama ch 10, vol 3, recipe for Gertrude vol3, faster than a kiss
Watching: how I met ur mother
Working on: reborn drawings 4 cf, comic, keychains
Playing: animal parade
Worries: driving, results, future
Craving to/for: inspirations

Loves

x day-dreaming
x anime/manga
x drawing
x miniature shoes
x sleeping
x reading zodiac infos.
x reading some personality facts
x chicken rice @ sungei wang :P
x hershey's kisses cookies and cream
x white or milk choco
x kaklong's triffle
x mum's cooking
x being around people she loves
x persona 3
x some games
x colonello
x yuya :)

Wants

x unlimited creativity
x money
x air and earth miniature shoes series
x to know what I want to do
x knowing myself more
x be a better person

The people around me

ari-chan
ain
aisya

anwar
elfie
fatin
syafiqah

ruby
jerrica
michelle
julia
kin kiat

I admire

x Raine

x shu mizugochi
x kagaya
x Pairo DA
x Nef DA
x Aiko DA
x LF DA
x FJ Yuuka





RSS Atom
rss feed


--Butterfly by Outlaw--
Layout by Monique

BLOGDRIVE
TEMPLATES

Butterfly Moments


Nov 7, 2009
you will always be my shining star. =)

Again. It's been a while I know. I just have been busy emo-ing bout life and stressed with uni at the moment. Gah. Though I now have a very much of a long holiday so I feel very much at ease. 4 now that is.

To carry on with my ranting, i started coming across different sorts of "I'm already gone" sort of relationships. Mainly because I hear views of people on their love life and how they are affected by it. Though on FB, I read this article by a new found friend as of this year. As worse as his life can be, he could still lift up his chin, smile, be as cheerful as possible, hiding the fact that he is so much depressed and lost inside. Somehow that feeling interest me since I have basically went through the same thing. A love that is very much gone from my life and the fact I can't change a thing about it.

He lost his love with a sickness I'm guessing. She went home with the lord as of end of August of this year. Who could actually thought one can go through with this with such a calm pace?

It kinda made me want to cry as I come across that article but as cold as I am with these things I think I am use to holding it in due to the pain I basically went through these past 3 years.

I'm sure he misses her the most. The were still an item until the very end.

Though our situation is not totally the same, I still somewhat understood how he feels. The feeling of not being able 2 do anything for his loved one just to save her.

I learn something from him though by reading his notes.

"Love is magnificent. When you do something without expect anything else in return at all. That is all that matters. Allah loves this."

Made me smile and I know that is all true.

 I am scared as heck to try again. Though if my fate is to love you all my life till I die then so be it. I won't expect anything else. Whatever I did, I hope you understand that I did so cause I think it is for the best for the both of us.

You will always be my shining star dear. Always know that. And all the best in everything!

2/03/04- 16/4/06

Posted at 06:45 pm by selphia

 

Leave a Comment:

Name


Homepage (optional)


Comments




Don't buy Vista Security
Previous Entry Home Next Entry